I have been stuck (at what feels like the last month or so but has really only been 2 weeks) at 185 I am 5 pounds from hitting 100 and I am trying my best to not obsess about it. But, reality is I am obsessed with hitting that 100 pound mark.
I have been struggling with the fact that I am not as diligent as I had been, I have not been walking like I love to do, not counting my containers as well as I should, not being as positive as I had been.
I have been scowling at my reflection, the saggy neck and wrinkly face, saggy stomach, legs and breasts. SAG SAG GAG!!! Getting so frustrated with what I look like now and then a picture of my before popped up on my friends phone (she had an old picture of me as the icon). She messaged me and said I know you have been feeling bad so I want you to look back at the last 8 months of pictures.
I have people tell me all the time I am inspiring, that what I have done is amazing etc. It is still so hard to hear positive things about myself and honestly I do not feel inspiring or amazing.
So that said I did look back at pictures and it is a good reminder that the scale should never be the indicator of your success. I will still obsess until I lose what I want to lose, but I will try to look back more often and see the real story. Even though I have not lost in pounds I can tell I am still losing. I have kind of lost sight as to what this journey is supposed to be about.
MAY 2015 to October 2015
November 2015 to April 2016